Where have I been...?

Ok for the past 2 years about I have been gone. Senior year of high school went all right. I broke it off with my boyfriend of 4 years! WHAT? I know haha, I just realized that he was treating me like crap and I wasn't happy. I felt so much better being single. I got a lot closer to my best friends who I wouldn't trade for anyone and made a lot of new ones. One being literally the love of my life. I know cheesy but true. Dayton my new boyfriend is the most supportive person I have ever met. Plus we are just alike. We basically moved in together since day one.... long story xD 

Besides that though I went through a lot of hardships. The college I was in wasn't very supportive. It abandoned many students for no reason. One being me as they completely shut down my program zoology. I went through a lot of soul searching in the past year and as of now I decided that college really isn't for me. Not until I know what I want to do as a profession anymore. SO! Instead I am practicing to become a dog trainer. Currently I am working at PetSmart (A VERY NICE ONE WITH NICE PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT ANIMALS!) and on the side I am reading books and saving money to be a trainer. Eventually I plan to join a program and get some certifications. I am also studying to be a falconer because why not? xDD 

Another thing that dragged me down was how a lot of my friends from my home town hated me for breaking it off with my ex. I later found out that he spread rumors about me cheating and only caring about his money. I could literally care less about money except to survive or donate to others. So from my hometown what used to be a group of 8 has dwindled to about 2 maybe 3. Its also hard because I have to live through a long distance relationship... it hurts every day. 

Next my health went to crap. I have been on an emotional roller coaster for a while, finding things out about my family from 30 hrs away is hard. Drug addiction, cheating, and a few other things are haunting me at the moment. My brother has been completely intolerable! As for physical health my hips have been popping out of my socket basically forcing me to go to the ER or have bed rest for 3+ days. Now a few days ago I have been diagnosed with another autoimmune disease this one a little more commonly known to have its own ribbon Crohn's disease! Yay >_> that along with Hypotension Dysautonomia has really taken its toll on me causing me to lose 10 lbs that I didn't even want to lose and that I now have to figure out how to gain back healthily. 

Besides all of this negative stuff happening to me right now I am trying to look on the bright side of things. I recently rescued a dog from being put down at the animal shelter who I absolutely love. I have a job with good hours and decent pay. I still have friends and family who love me, and I am still young enough to achieve my dreams while fighting these horrible diseases. I just get down on myself once in a while. I have a lot to struggle through... but that will make the end result that much better <3 hope to be talking to you soon! (And adding art)

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